I stared into those dark eyes and ask myself...
Can I believe or just dare to believe in my dream
So I put my heart on the line
and what do you do
You crush what little I gave
As if it wasn’t meant for you
I guess I was silly to believe
that you would come through,
but that’s what I get for thinking you would give up those so called 'just friends' who always ended up on the other end.
As I reminisce on the past
I see myself loving you giving you all that I had.
I cried many nights thinking of what I could change, but not one thing could be found.
So now I guess it's on you
I lay here in the mist of it all
Praying that I could have all that I gave because now I realize the love was meant for me and not for you... If you know what I mean.
That's the beauty of it all... my
mind body and soul will heal.
But, then, there's my heart...
Remember the one you broke?
But don't drop a tear for me
There's surely no need
because now I have what truly
Hiding from my inner self
wanting to be free…
Longing for a man but not even able to understand me
Not able to understand why my emotions were so high
Trying to answer my problems by loving a guy
And when it didn’t work I asked myself why
Why can’t I love myself?
Why am I living a lie?
Never guessing that my heart would lead me astray...
I paid a high price for denying myself love.
Beautiful on the outside and hurting deep within...
Emotions set free and now I can start again.
Learning to love myself and learning how to express the best part of me.
Not just the distressed feelings but everything good within me
Accepting reality and who I truly am... just, loving, loving, loving me.
I sleep but I'm always awake
my dreams tell me things my reality can't take.
Any pain and harm I
am supposed to feel its taken care of in my dreams like its no big deal.
My dreams protect me because my reality is so fragile
can't take an inch and turn it into a mile.
We all need protection from
something or someone at all times.
Your feelings are just as precious as mines.
I sleep but I am always awake
my nightmares tell me things that my reality can't take.
You appear in them every night
I toss and turn..
I try to fight..
You destroy me all the time in my mental because you don't understand what I've been through.
all a game to you you've never acknowledged how you've broken me down.
You've changed my world and everything I surround.
showed me fear,
helplessness, death and complete violation.
How could you possibly tell me its all in my imagination?
I sleep but I'm always awake
My dreams tell me things that my reality can't take.
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