ENJOY LIFE MAGAZINE

July 15, 2008/ Poet's Pad ~ Poet of the Month

Olivia Brown Poet of the Month!

"The Pain of the Vain"

Written by Olivia Brown

I'm so self conscious, let me tell you how

This weave cost $500, this outfit a thou

These shoes cost an arm, the accessories a leg

Outside a round dime, inside a square peg

I dress to impress to mesh with the best

but my life is such a stress yes I'm such a pretty mess

If my credit card could talk it would scream in disdain

from being pushed to the max of trying to cover up my pain

Speaking of cover up, I buy Mac makeup by the cart

but somehow it still can't mask the scars that's on my heart

Unbalanced, unhealthy, unaware of my own worth

It's hard to love myself but I adore my Dior purse

And these Minolos keep me walking onto a road of despair

where fake people love me for my make-up, nails, and hair

And everything's intact from the outside looking in

but from within it's hard to tell where the pain begins and ends.

So this is my declaration

the pain of the vain

I'm so sorry for venting

they say the pretty can't complain

But only if you knew what really goes on

when you can't control anything and everything's wrong

and you can't tell anyone cuz it's the same ole' song

that everyone tells everyone so you feel you don't don't belong

when you just want to be loved

when you just want to be heard

when you don't care about looks

because inside you're just a nerd

and inside you're really hurt

and inside you wish you could

not have to think that you have to look good to feel good

This feeling is very real, I deal with it everyday

no matter how much I pay, it won't take it all away

One day, I'll love my inner-self with all my flaws & all

but right now I need a pick-me-up

I'll catch you at the mall.

SLEEP By Lakisha M. Johnson

I sleep but I'm always awake
my dreams tell me things my reality can't take
any pain and harm I am supposed to feel
its taken care of in my dreams like its no big deal
my dreams protect me because my reality is so fragile
therefore you can't take an inch and turn it into a mile
we all need protection from something or someone at all times
your feelings are just as precious as mines
I sleep but I am always awake
my nightmares tell me things that my reality can't take
you appear in them every night
I toss and turn I try to fight
you destroy me all the time in my mental
because you don't understand what I've been through
Its all a game to you
you've never acknowledged how you've broken me down
you've changed my world and everything I surround
You've showed me fear, helplessness, death and complete violation
how could you possibly tell me its all in my imagination
I sleep but I'm always awake
my dreams tell me things that my reality can't take

Healed by Laneisha Wells

Who knows if what we had was true

I stared into those dark eyes and ask myself...

Can I believe or just dare to believe in my dream

So I put my heart on the line

and what do you do

You crush what little I gave

As if it wasn’t meant for you

I guess I was silly to believe

That you would come through

But that’s what I get

For thinking you would give up those

So called just friends

Who always ended up on the other end?

As I reminisce on the past

I see myself loving you

Giving you all that I had

I cried many nights

Thinking of what I could change

But not one thing I couldn’t be found

So now I guess it on you

I lay here in the mist of it all

Praying that I could have all that I gave

Because now I realize the love was meant for me

And not for you

If you know what I mean

That’s the beauty of it all my mind body and soul well heal

But there’s the heart

Remember the one you broke

But don’t drop a tear for me

There’s surely no need

Because now I have what truly wasn’t going to be found in you

He is what I would call a diamond in the ruff

He was always there but some how I picked you

And now am falling for my princess

That was supposed to be found in you

But all that was there was lies and deceit

Which you gave to me like a treat

Don’t be surprised when I love him with all I got

Because I did it for you without any thought

Hopefully we can be friends doesn’t that sound familiar

That’s what you told me at the End.

Insiprational Poetry by Lakesha Woods

Life is What You Make It

Have A Talk with God

The Test of Time

Stand for Everyone

Blue Collared Brother ... Your Queen is Here for You

The Challenges of Life

Keepin' It Real

Romantic Poetry

My Words : By Lakesha Woods
This poem describes how a woman wins a mans heart by using her intellect.
Kindred Souls: By Lakesha Woods
Kindred Souls identifies the insecurties and the reason for hesitation when trying to start a new relationship.
Someone: By Lakesha Woods
Some describes the attributes of a man who would capture my heart.